Great , again. Every time when i felt like there's no place for me to express , i ended up here. A lot happened lately. Ups and downs but you're still in one piece after all. Worst part is, you feel shattered even though youre still in 1 piece. Somehow , in life everyone's live with a scar. Nope , wouldnt say a scar. It should be scars. Today , i can tell this is the first time after so long i barely breathe when it happens. Only God knows what was i up to , definitely not letting go. When i woke up and it happened , i felt like i was asleep and this is a freaking nightmare. I was this close to the turning point , to change who i used to be and to proceed with the next challenge. Guess im stuck. They are countless things that i wanna say to you , but not like you're gonna listen it. Not only by your ears , listen by your heart. I never regret from the beginning , cause i know i wont let go. I was holding it so tightly that nothing can interfere it. Not even when the world's gonna tear apart. But not until , the thing i was holding on told me it doesn't needs me to hold onto. I'll live even when youre not by my side , but i swear my heart will never stop crying. Only people that you cared , can leave you a scar and tear your heart into pieces.

Tomorrow is always a second chance.

That means , I have wasted many of them.
Think that you can't do anything just because you were not given a chance ? An opportunity ?
Moron , yes I am. We shouldn't stop doing something like what it could have been done , something great , something important. Even a wise man is still learning until he dies. What's more people like us that couldn't see things differently? We can always do the right thing , even when things around us are not. Who cares what happens in the end ? or what's left ? Is the heart that matters. If I love you , I'll learn to let go. If you are mine , in the end you will be. If I have a dream , make it real. If I was borned with a heart , I should believe in myself. If tomorrow is always a second chance , do what's right and never waste it.

-ahYang-

Hi bloggie. ;)

Just realised that I din't blog for the past few months. Not even some new year's picture or whatever.
Maybe i was too stress. I AM stress now! So maybe blog something would make me feel better.

Pictures do the summary. :) For the past few months , I ...

Wore shade during night time and i look cool. :)

Tried to act serious in our family portrait.

Was always being restless with them.

Had been a lil bit tipsy with them. Haha

I... love this picture. ;D

Was being told to be a speaker/actor.

Went up to a FREAKING 10.5million truck. Haha

Had been simply scouting.

and to cook and eat a fried egg like this.

Lastly , I always stuck in school and get emo-fied sometimes. Credits to RaminKrause.

That's about it i think. I screwed my test this time. Real badddd , and i feel badddd and things are gonna get baddd-er and baddd-er. Not better. :( Sigh. Signing out.

-ahYang-

I can't describe how I feel right now.
Just saying that in the end of the day , I might not be who I wanted to be.
Perhaps , I will be the one that left behind.
I couldn't chase. =/

There is an uphill slope.

I always thought of being someone really strong , optimistic and never give up kind of guy.
But sometimes without realizing that I actually need someone like that regardless who is she/he.

I'm a loser because I said I will never give up. I was kinda holding onto the goal , but without making any effort. Which means I already give up. I lost this battle. =/

I had many chances , perhaps i still have right now. I blew it , hope not again this time.
A tap on my shoulders , or a hug would make me teary now. sighhh.

-ahYang-

3.56 a.m

Thoughts coming in and i have no idea what am i trying to type over here.
Who cares? Is my right to do so , my blog i would claim.

Have you ever come across of how many hearts were broken by you ? How many times you have failed them ? Did i changed for the better ? or worse ?

Everyone wants to be better in every way.
But its stupid when you thought of something would be perfect.
Like we said , nothing is perfect but why are we still thinking about it sometimes?
Probably is because we cannot accept imperfections in us as well as others.

How stupid I am , that i couldn't accept imperfections of my own and also yours. Seriously , i admit.
The minute you try to be perfect , is the minute you lose yourself.
This is why i got stuck , hope you're not.

I know is late , but i still do. I'll learn to accept
Is actually 1 way to forgive and forget so that we will move on.

Pretty dumb huh that i actually share all these. Accept my imperfection will you ?

-ahYang-

Turning 18.

This year is better compared to 2 years ago , this time ..
I had dinner with my family and friends ,
I had 2 birthday cakes unlike the previous years ,
I celebrated , ofcourse and
I have birthday presents! :)

31st October 1992 -

Had dinner with my family and relatives , Uncles and Aunties all wished me and some gave me Angpow and bought me a cake from Nikko Hotel , haha still a present but in a form of money. Slacked with my friends and they spent their time just to come over because it's my birthday. Pictures are some blur , sorry for that.

Big thank you to my Aunt. =)

Me: If you dare to buy this shits for me and I swear I dare to wear it. *Bryan got down from the car and bought this* Ed&Mf: Youre fucking dead! Need me to explain more?

Screw both of you.

Moral of the story , keep quiet on your birthday. =X

2nd November 1992 -

One thing in school is , birthday bash will never be missed. I had 2 rounds of them and now i can't feel my back! Hahaha , had a small celebration and watched movie with the monkeys in school. A big thank you to everyone and Joyce the one who planned this which she was trying to surprised me but failed. HAHAHA! Lastly I'm sorry to DD that I shared half of your cake!

Delicious! ;D

Celebrate our belated birthdays!

Someone gave me chocolates as present. :) That box.

Coconut who ordered sambal for me. ;D

The people! Missing Joyce , Chairany and Yoke Mun. = =

Rated 4/5! Awesome! =)

Seventeen's life gone!
Thanks for the memories , the sweet and sincere wishes , presents and everything. :)

-ahYang-